In My Reality

That look , oh I remember that look. It’s a rare one at that, but it comes around once in a lifetime.   everything I hate about myself, you find somehow beautiful.   I’m at lost for words.

 

Take a look , at that look, it’s burning a whole inside my wildest dreams.  lets escape the world for awhile, we don’t need it anyway.   Escaping reality is what I want to do.  Distract me from what I don’t like, show me who to live up too, discover ourselves in our dreams.

 

That look , oh I remember that look. It’s a rare one at that, but it comes around once in a lifetime.   everything I hate about myself, you find somehow beautiful.   I’m at lost for words.

 

A hidden self is what I’ve done.  Isolated myself from everyone, just to not have a connection, but guess who feels the loneliest ?

 

I’d rather not have to hide, maybe I’ll let a wall down .   My world is a crazy one, filled with hidden trap doors and laughing clowns.

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The Thought

It’s 11:11 and I thought of you.   I remember like it was yesterday, your body against mine.  They say who we should love and who we should take to bed, but why can’t we make choices on happiness instead of control ?  let’s not put a label on this or what we are.

If  I show you who I really am, would you still be there?  I hide in the darkness of anxiety and insecurities.  I’d rather achieve a dream far out than live a lie of who I’m not.

It’s 11:11 and I thought of you.   I remember like it was yesterday, your body against mine.  They say who we should love and who we should take to bed, but why can’t we make choices on happiness instead of control ?  let’s not put a label on this or what we are.

You said you know the feeling is mutual, how can you tell ?   I question everything because it always ends up going wrong.   If I show everything that makes me bad, would you still be there. the darkness consumes me and takes over.

 

 

Something That Exists

Is this what will exist between us?  I don’t want to sink farther into this because it never lasts.   See me for who I am, look through my eyes, tell me I’m not alone in this.

 

With every touch I freeze .  Overwhelmed, not used to this.  My mind overtakes every moment.  I know more than I speak.

Is this what will exist between us?  I don’t want to sink farther into this because it never lasts.   See me for who I am, look through my eyes, tell me I’m not alone in this.

 

Happiness only exists when your not looking for it.  Was I looking for this all along, or do I enjoy being alone, sitting in my thoughts.

 

PTSD

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PTSD can happen in many forms such as a person reliving a traumatic event over and over, wanting to forget that event but no matter how much they try ad forget , it still surfaces.   A soldier, police officer, chronic pain survivor, a victim of a crime, all can encounter some type of PTSD.

People that live with a past and they never forget, also can live with PTSD.   Like in the captain America movies, the two main characters Steve and Bucky are soldiers and have encountered some form of PTSD.

 

 

Filling The Air

Your cigarette  smoke fills the air. The scent of you on my shirt.  I can still smell your  brand.  Can you understand how alike but unalike we are?

Two broke, beaten down, flawed people can’t hide their demons forever like the joker and Harley.  Lets make this something to remember.

Your cigarette  smoke fills the air. The scent of you on my shirt.  I can still smell your  brand.  Can you understand how alike but unalike we are?

I’ve wanted to never be happy because it never lasts, so I don’t know what happiness really is.  Timid, shy, non- open people are the most complicated, did I mention I’m complicated?

 

The New Joker

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To channel this version of the joker is very simple.   From all of the other jokers, this one is more unique because this one steps out of the all purple suit.   In one of the many teasers released, their is a clip of Harley Quinn and the joker going to a party and they are seen wearing more of the typical tux clothes and lots of gold.   the make up is not as heavy as previous portrays.   But, I feel this joker will be a whole lot crazier than ever before.   I feel that this version of the joker is simple and is going to be seen for his actions rather than his looks.